therapy
therapy I
whenever i feel down, window shopping or strolling at the mall, never failed to at least ease a lil bit of my tensed, and i like to do it alone especially here... i dont really fancy buying anything but if i have extra cash, i will spend it for books... back in malaysia, whenever i got my pay, MPH n kinokunoya will be my fav place to spend my cash.. but here it is much2 better, i can get at least 10 good RD condensed books for 3pounds in carboot, i love it very2 much... i can spend up to 10 pounds and can have a big box of chic lit books and RD books... but seriously, strolling at the mall alone give me kinda of calmness actually...
therapy II
playing with my two adorable nephews.... main2, wrestling, layan segala kerenah mereka, bring them to park, treat them icecream, nyanyi kuat2, dgr muzik sambil joget2, main kejar2, gelak2 and finally renung ke dalam mata mereka... mmg menenangkan... n also tgk muka mereka masa tgh tidur... hmmmm sejuk je rasa... hilang semua serabut2.. seakan2 memberi semangat dan ketenangan dalam hidup ini...
therapy III
drink a cup of macchiato at SB/SF/CB sambil people watching.... u will realize how lucky u are.. masa tu baru terasa, masalah yg dihadapi ini kecil je berbanding masalah org lain... so tak perlu nak mengeluh berpanjangan....
therapy IV
kaau 12-15 tahun lalu, saya menganggap air mata yg mengalir adalah a sign of weakness.. tapi persepsi itu berubah kini, ia adalah salah satu cara untuk melegakan apa saja yg tersirat dan tersimpul yg membebankan.... kini, saya percaya pada kekuatan air mata utk melegakan himpitan segala masalah yg membuku di dada...
therapy V
laut, pantai dan hujan lebat.... antara unsur2 yg boleh menenangkan saya.... saya masih ingat, 5 tahun lalu, saya berdiri di dalam hujan lebat ketika perjalanan AMT itu memeritkan... tapi selepas itu saya tenang..... (main hujan ni best sebenarnya!!!), dan berada di tepi pantai menikmati angin laut dan mendengar bunyi ombak... yaa itu juga menenangkan.. kalau dapat mandi laut lagi best.... apa2 yg berunsur air mmg ada potensi utk menenangkan saya... hmm mungkin saya ni ada unsur2 api kot!!
therapy VI
ini adalah yg terbaik.... sujud kepada Ilahi dan mengadu kepadaNYA..... ketenangan itu akan datang dan kewarasan membuat pertimbangan jelas kelihatan..
moga tenang dan waras itu milik saya buat waktu ini kerana saya benar2 memerlukannya sekarang..... ameen
tak de mood
- physicall drained
- mentally tiread
- emotionally disturbed
why??? i dont know...
- i cant do my LS
- the AFR is stucked
- my fingers hurt
- this penin2 keep coming
- i feel down
- what?????? holland lost in that
gile match with 16 yellow cards n 4 red cards???
- im tired
- boleh tak jgn byk tanya ngan saya.... saya rimas!!!!!!!
- boleh tak pergi jauh2 dari saya.... kenapa awk suka kacau saya?????
I dont know
ive tried my best but i failed...
my absence made someone really worried....
how far this will go i dont know..
the future is not for me to predict...
i just..
follow where the winds blow....
Hari Ini
study:
- not much progress
- technical problem with pro eng
- stucked with e progmmng thing
- managed to develop 2 LS
- KBS selection is on hold, need more info
- bakal ditembak hari ini .... iskkkk jgnla conflict itu berjangkit plakkk
life:
- bola, football, soccer
- worldcup2006
- live at 2 , 5 and 8 pm
- electronic chart updates
- ggggggggggoooooooooooaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll
- bersorak n mexican wave
- mengomen and shouting at the player and also e ref
- bertukar jersi saban hari
- oranjes rulessss!!!!
- lost my 1st betting!!! (hehehe sape soh bet on T&T.......)
- a few takeaways for dinner (tak sempat nk masak sehh)
weather:
- kejap panas membahang..kejap sejuk membeku... apa2pun i like it... no more jackets... boleh bergaya with e new jerseyss every day
- padanlaa mamat dan minah salleh pelik tgk saya berpayung di tengah panas..rupanya kat sini payung hanya utk musim hujan je... (me: alaaa tak kisahlaaa... dh panas cam tu... buka mata pun payah.... krg hitammm sape susah??)
blog:
- ampun blogku... udah lama tidak update yaa... hehehe.. busy sehhhh..... dengan perkara2 di bawah topik life...
last but not least..
dear baba (bapa, kawan, idola, pembimbing, imam, pemimpin, pelawak, pententeram jiwa, sumber inspirasi dan SEGALANYA)
happy father's day...
kenapa?
dialog di hari ahad:
me: Can I ask u something?
him: Yes dear…apa dia…
me: Kenapa awk baik sgt dgn saya… I got scared sometime…
him: Sorry dear if u got scared…I didn’t mean it at all.. and Please don’t bother about me…what I want u to do is concentrate on ur study and finish it on time… bila *** ada masa, saya akan temankan awk… make u happy, ketawa n senyum selalu, I want u to do ur phd dengan tenang dan gembira… *** tak nak awk stress2 selalu …
me: Kenapa?
him: I don’t have answer for that… I just feel I want to do it.. don’t ask me for answer
me: Hmm…. Tapi…
him: All I can say is u hv that special something that makes others glad 2b around some1 with so much charm and personality… I just like to see ur smiles and laughs…and it does made me feel happy
me: Thank you (sambil tersengih cam kerang busuk......)
summer is here
e weekend was great...superb actually... e sun shines brightly... panas membahang sehhh.... alhamdulillah... tersenyum simpul kami berjalan kaki dgn riang rianya walaupun city council bus on strike hari tu... setelah separuh hari berjalan... kami pun pulang... smpi je umah, match ENG vs JAM.... 1st half mmg entertaining.. kalau tak, takkan bersorak bagai nak rak.... wpun bertiga, tapi kira2nya bolehlaa nk buat mexican wave n also tiru crouch menari2 ala2 robot tu... heehehe... habis 1st half, ada org dtg jemput for BBQ, e best part is.. meka2 ni tak perasan yg match tu siang.... meloponglaa si tukang jemput tuh... off we went to BBQ dgn hati yg berat... match tak abis lagi maaa...
e BBQ was ok laaa..... tak kenal ramai sgt org as most of them are UG... but e best part is semua org ingat saya pun budak UG gak... hehee... layan jelah... :D
balik dari BBQ...we decided to walk through Wollaton Park.... maka my LX-1 pun menjalankan tugasannya... lagi2 bila we discover that rusa2 sekali yg menetap di sini sedang bersantai di atas padang golf... seronok je meka2 tu.. iskk.. kalau tersesat bola golf sebiji dua..mau benjol sekor2... :D...penat amik gambar pokok, awan, langit, rusa, bangku, pagar... turn kami pula berposing... apa lagi.... charlies angle wannabe la jawabnya!!!
overall... e weekend was perfect..... letih but seronok... on sunday agak seronok juga but biarlah rahsia ;)
charlies angel
